My knitting basket is overflowing with inspiration and and possibility, and my design notebook is full of ideas. But, lately, I can’t seem to sit still long enough to achieve very much progress any any one project. I blame multiple, coinciding factors.
One is the heat. It seems like the past month has just been one heat wave after another with only a couple of days in between to bring a reprieve. With no air conditioning in our apartment, the consecutive days of high temperatures can make sitting down and working on a knitting project an uncomfortable experience. I also find the heat makes all of us in the apartment a bit restless, with Andy, Rufus, and myself constantly moving about to try to find a bit of comfort.
On top of the warm weather, I have the heat of my approaching Ph.D. defense to contend with as well. It’s two weeks away from tomorrow and the anxiety is starting to build. Each day I’ve been working on my seminar presentation bit by bit and compiled my reading list to refresh myself on those underlying basics and get the juices flowing for those defense questions. Everyone keeps telling me that the defense is really a victory lap to celebrate and share the research of the past years, but it is still a nerve wracking experience. I know I wouldn’t be at this point if I wasn’t ready, but the long wait between finishing the thesis and actually defending it may actually be more difficult to endure than all the work I put into it!
But cooler temperatures (and hopefully a successful defense) are on the horizon and hopefully soon I’ll be able to slip back into a comfortable knitting routine and enjoy having the pressure off my shoulders. I have goals to get several new self-published knitting designs out this fall along with a few designs scheduled in some third-party publications to continue growing my design catalog.
I also have some exciting news about Long Dog Yarn. You may notice the yarn shop has a brand new look as I switch over to a new self-hosted shop (although you can still buy through the Etsy storefront for the time being, if that is your preference). Long Dog Yarn will also be available in some yarn shops very soon, so keep an eye out for that announcement to find out where you will be able to oogle some Long Dog Yarn in person.
To put it lightly, the past couple of months have been bonkers. It’s been a roller coaster ride of anxiety, accomplishment, uncertainty, opportunity, growth, self-doubt, and success. It is very much the beginning of a big period of transition for Andy and I as we both work fiendishly to finish our Ph.D. theses (thesi?) this summer / early autumn and move on to the next things life has in store for us.
After a lot of hard work and a little frustration, I finally had my thesis approval meeting last week and was approved to move on to the big final oral examination. All of this means that for now, my thesis is complete and will be sent off to be assessed and critiqued by experts within my field. I still have a few more steps in front of me before being awarded my degree, but it really feels like the major hurdle is past me – my supervisory committee is confident that I am prepared to defend my research and prove my expertise within the field. So while I feel great about what I’ve managed to accomplish thus far, I’m already feeling the next wave of anxiety about my final defense at the end of August.
While all that was happening, I felt like I was suffering a bit of a crisis of confidence creatively. I consistently felt like every idea I had for a new design just fell flat. Everything I had on my needles failed to satisfy that primal part of my creative being. Nothing clicked. Nothing provided that little magic glow that drives my passion for design. And each time I ripped out a design, I just felt the weight of the pressure I had placed on myself to succeed grow and grow. It just wasn’t working on the design side of things, so I channeled a lot of that creative frustration into Long Dog Yarns hoping that the color and yarn would spark that inspiration within me again and move me past this design block.
I’m not sure I’m entirely there yet, but I’ve been knitting and dyeing and just being kinder to myself. With a bit more spare time on my horizon, I’m hoping things will click back into place a bit more and I’ll get my knitting mojo back. I am trying to take that self-imposed pressure off of my shoulders and remind myself that if it’s not fun, then it’s not worth my time. And I’m starting to feel the simple pleasure in turning my ideas into a design coming back. I’ve been working on a new design using my line of yarn, Sock (colorway pictured is Freshwater Pearl), that also utilizes the speckled yarns that I love to both dye and knit. One sock down and one to go…
In the past couple of weeks, I’ve been having a lot of fun setting up a new online shop for my very own hand dyed yarns, so I’m very excited to introduce Long Dog Yarn, available now online.
I had been thinking of trying out yarn dyeing again this summer using acid-fast dyes after the small trials I had using food coloring to dye yarn. Sitting in bed one night, a thought suddenly popped into my head of a label that has a dachshund that stretches around the circumference of the label and the idea of Long Dog Yarn was born as I drifted off to sleep. That next weekend I picked up my first starter dye kit, some blank hanks of yarn, and started reading everything I could find online about mixing colors and hand dyeing yarn. And things really just took off from there. More yarn and more color and more fun.
Everyday I’m working with my yarns I learn something new, and then I have to try it out. Having all this blank yarn around is very dangerous. My favorite part of the experience is having absolute creative control over the process. My goal is to have Long Dog Yarn supplement the design side of my business, allowing me to imagine a design and create the perfect yarn to compliment it. Plus, it’s just really fun and creatively satisfying in a completely different way to the design side of things.